Very long update.
So the last few months have been a bit crazy.Well, actually REALLY crazy. About 4 months ago I found out i was pregnant. My husband and I were both very excited and really looking forward to our new journey. After i found out, which was at around 6 weeks gestation, I stopped going to the gym because I hadn’t gone to the doctor yet and wasn’t sure what I was allowed to do exercise wise ( weight lifting etc.) When we went to the doctor at 10 weeks, I was told everything was fine and that i could continue my normal exercise routine. My morning sickness was really bad at that point and I was extremely tired all the time. I kept up my healthy eating for the most part but gave in to a few of the cravings. We continued to go to our regular doctor check ups and everything seemed to be going great with the pregnancy. Outside of that, my life was a mess. I had quit my job a few weeks before I found out I was pregnant and went to work for a friend who promised me more money than I was making at my prior job even though they didn’t have any health benefits I took it. Turns out when i got my first pay check, she was actually paying me LESS than what i was making at my prior job. I was very angry and felt really betrayed and once I found out i was pregnant, the stress of it really took a toll. My family has never been very supportive of the choices i make in my life, and they ask for so much from me financially, which i couldn’t give them and that was another source of stress. My relationship with my husband was going well for the most part, but I know he was under a lot of stress and pressure because I was pregnant and wanted to provide for me and the baby. Fast forward 3 months…I woke up one morning and my pj bottoms were wet, like i had peed the bed. I went to the bathroom and wiped and there were traces of blood on the toilet paper. I went into a panic and immediately called my doctor. The doctor asked me if i was experiencing any pain, I said only slight cramping, but no extreme pain, he asked if I have a fever, I said no. The doctor told me to relax and to come in first thing the next morning, and that it might just be spotting from the pregnancy. I took his word and went about my day, to work. I hadn’t told my husband anything because he was at work and isn’t allowed to have his cellphone for security purposes because he was working at the NSA at the time, I waited until I came home to tell him and he was really upset with me that I didn’t tell him because he said he would have taken me to the ER. I told him I already spoke to the doctor and he told me to come in first thing in the morning. The next morning I drove to the doctor’s office and the first thing they did was do an ultrasound. I remember feeling very anxious. They rolled the ultrasound around for a minute and there was silence, they did it again and still could not find the heartbeat. I was devastated. They told me the baby was gone and that they would have to do a D&C to empty my uterus. I cried on the table for what seemed like forever because I was thinking about how badly my husband and I wanted this baby. I then called my husband at the office line he gave me at the NSA to reach him and told him the news. He was silent for a while and I could hear him sniffling and crying. I told him that they were going to do the surgery and that I would need him to come pick me up in a few hours. I don’t think i’ve ever experienced as much emotional pain as I did that day and that i’m still feeling today. My husband took it very hard and he wasn’t able to go to work for 3 days and stayed home with me to take care of me. As terrible as that experience was, I’m glad I wasn’t alone and that he was so supportive and caring of me. The next few days into recovery I was checking my e-mail and I saw an e-mail from a job I sent my resume to who were interested in having me join their team. I e-mailed back and they asked me to come in for an interview the following monday. As terrible as i still felt and put on my interview clothes and went. I was nervous about doing well in the interview because i’m a very transparent person and I was afraid they could see the pain in my face. But i pulled through and it turned out they really liked me. Two days later I received a phone call from the CEO of the company asking me If I would like to start the following week. of course I said yes and he sent me an offer letter in minutes. They pay is MUCH higher than I was getting at my previous job, with great benefits and a great office environment. i started here last week and so far i’m enjoying it. I guess everything happens for a reason and maybe it wasn’t the right time for the baby. My husband and i’s bond is much stronger after this experience and we are looking forward to moving to a better place and preparing better for the next time I get pregnant. I am also working on managing my stress levels and getting back on my exercise regime. I only gained 5 pounds during that pregnancy, but it feels like so much more since I wasn’t going to the gym, and I look forward to getting those 5 pounds and starting fresh. :)
I’m still alive!!
Hi all!! So sorry i haven’t been updating. I’ve been so incredibly busy with work and running around to doctors appointments etc…If you didn’t see the answer i just posted…I am pregnant! :) I’m super excited!! I’m also engaged ( which technically i have been for like the past 4 years, but whatevz) and will be getting married in the next few weeks! <3 I’m 12 weeks pregnant currently and feeling good so far. I am trying to stay as healthy and active as possible but i must say this first trimester took a lot out of me! I’ve been so sleepy and exhausted and it’s been hard for me to get to the gym or do any exercise. I have gained 5lbs, which isn’t so bad considering i haven’t been exercising at all really. I am going to be making a real effort to try and stay fit throughout my pregnancy so if anyone has any advice, resources, links to fitpregnancy blogs would be awesome! Also if you are pregnant and trying to stay fit and have any tips or advice, please contact me!!!! I need all the help i can get!!! Thank you all for thinking of me and sending me sweet messages <3 I feel very loved here and I can’t wait to share this journey with you all!
This is a sonogram of my little owlet i got on Monday! I don’t know the sex yet, but i’ll know in about 8 weeks! If you can see, the owlet waved at us!!! So cute!!! I’m already in love!
So ma'am, I've been waiting on you to post if you're pregnant! Come back and update us (: Hope all is well!
Hi! Im still alive lol!!! I have been so incredibly busy and havent had time to update:( the answer is YES! I am pregnant! and i’m about to post about it now! It warms my heart that you were thinking of me!! <3 <3
It’s been a little while!
I’ve been so very busy! Life is hard and sometimes I have a tough time keeping up.
I’m steady between 161-163lbs and I’m ok at this weight. I haven’t been very active lately because of my schedule and I need to change that. Also, I’ve been feeling strange the past few weeks. Very tired, nausea and My period is also MIA…I’m pretty sure I’ve got a bun in the oven. I’m happy :) and so is the bf. Were going to the doctor Wednesday to confirm so I’ll keep you all posted!
We went down to Tennessee for thanksgiving and stayed through Saturday to visit with his family. I had a wonderful time, and I talk to his family online so much it felt like I already knew them. They made me feel so welcome and loved. We drove there so we had a lot of time to talk about the baby situation. Were both a little nervous, but confident in each other and think well be just fine :) were also going to give the marriage thing a shot. Not just for the baby, but because we love each other. I’m excited for this new chapter in my life.
Internet at home has been down for a little while so I can’t update from my laptop lol…and the tumblr mobile app kind of sucks and I don’t like using it! But I am still here and kickin’!!
I’ve never done one of these pants comparisons but I decided to take one today and was pretty proud of it! The blue pair are size 14 and the black ones are a 9 :) yippee!
I’m still hovering between 160-163lbs and I’m not sure why but it doesn’t really bother me that much because I’m kind of happy where I am :) I still want to reach my goal though so I’m going to switch up my workout routine next and see if that helps! Food has been about the same too but I don’t think I’ve been drinking enough water so I need to address that as well. Anyone have any advice on this? If so,message me!!!! Thanks!!
Fajita pita stuffed with chicken breast, mushrooms, red and green peppers, onions and garlic! With a side of avocado and tomatoes :) #nomz #healthy #fresh #dinner
Would you say the elliptical is more effective or a treadmill?
I personally enjoy the elliptical more. I work up a better sweat and just feel like I’m getting a better workout. I tend to avoid the treadmill because I much rather enjoy walking/running/jogging outdoors on trails. Better scenery, much better than looking at somebody else’s backside! :)
I just wanted to tell you it looks like you did a great job dropping weight and you look incredibly sexy now :)
Thank you :)
Awesome blog!! And congrats on your weight loss!! 👏👏👏👏 I'm on my weight loss journey myself too I'm so lost I just run or elliptical
Thank you!!! And go YOU!!! Running and the elliptical are a great start! Try incorporating some weight/strength training as well